Renewed, restored, and Released.

I originally drafted this post on August 21, 2023, and I had no sense of direction at that time.Hello, how are you? I hope you are well. I'm back, hopefully for good, this time on my blog, but. I took some time off work to recuperate with God. 

This morning, I felt so peaceful. So beautiful and so loved. As I was getting ready for the day to do my skin care and my makeup, I kept hearing, "And she laughed. " So, of course, I took myself to Genesis chapter 17 and a little bit of 18. As I was reading, I found great joy in what God is doing in my life.

Note: I am not comparing myself to Abraham and Sarah, just pulling from them what the Lord is doing in me. 

Genesis 17:15 then God said to Abraham as for Sarai your wife, you shall not call her name Sarai (my princess), but her name will be Sarah (princess.)

16 I will bless her and indeed I will also give you a son by her. Yes, I will bless her and she shall be a mother of Nations; Kings of people will come from her.

Genesis 18:9 then they said to him, "Where is Sarah your wife?" And he said," there, in the tent."

10. He said," I will surely return to you at this time. Next year; and behold, Sarah, your wife will have a son." And Sarah was listening at the tent door, which was behind him 

11 now Abraham and Sarah we're old, will advance in years; she was past [the age of] child bearing.

12 So Sarah laughed to herself [when she heard the LORD'S words], saying, "After I have become old, shall I have pleasure and delight, my lord (husband) being so old?" 

All scriptures come from the AMP Translation.

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Of course, these versus are talking about a very specific situation that a lot of people can relate to. I want to look at it from the perspective of applying it to my own life at this current time of my walk with the Lord. I have decided to start over; I've surrendered my ideas, my thoughts, my character—you name it—to the Lord, and in this process, I have felt like a child, learning new things that I felt like I should have already learned. And the reason why this is so important, especially for the title, is that Sarah and Abraham were well into their '90s (100s) of age. God was bringing a promise—a promise to pass at an unconventional time. I don't know what it's like to have a baby, but I would imagine it's like starting all over again.

Jesus tells us in Matthew 18:3 why. I think at a certain age, we start to realize that we truly don't know everything. However, we have this false sense of identity about knowing what we're supposed to do. Who are we supposed to be, and what are we meant to accomplish on this earth? That is quite a daunting task, and in all honesty, I do believe it's as if we are acting like God. But in the context of this blog post, the reason why I feel like God led me to this verse this morning is that sometimes God's dreams and his plans for us are so big.How are we supposed to believe something of the magnitude that God wants us to do in our lives?

I won't go into details I ended up ripping all the prayers I wrote off the walls. When I tell you I was RIPPING paper off the walls, I would tear them into pieces. I threw away my sign that I "Prayed for the things I have Now." Did I? Really? And since they day the Lord has taken me by the hand and gently walked me through a process of rediscovery. It has nothing to do with the wrong reasons, but it had everything to do with where I had placed my identity.

We say these phrases. God is a miracle worker. He's a supernatural being; he can make the impossible possible, and we are all quite biblically not called to do the same thing on this earth. But when God presents to us a dream, a blessing, or a hope for the future, we tend to look at God and laugh at what he wants to bring about in our lives. Me Lord? You want to use me to do what?

And as I'm starting over, I'm becoming so comfortable with his plan for me. I am renewed with a greater sense of identity in Christ. I have become quite bold. Who I am and my confidence in what I am doing are built on a firm foundation. No, this boldness does not come with the roar.

It comes with sweetness and gentleness. It comes with frankness and truthfulness. It comes with childlike curiosity and vulnerability that I can still go to my father in heaven for support for my love of knowledge and wisdom, that I should never stop seeking him, and that my heart should be crowned by his spirit and his spirit alone. This is what it means to be renewed and restored in the image of Christ, especially when it comes to these platforms that God has called me to steward.I am not rushing forward. I am not panicking anymore.

I'm not feeling like I'm lacking something or that what God has led me to do on these platforms is not of him because I'm seeking him every day, trying to see how he has made his presence known in my life, and pursuing that.

What is now being released is the overflow of what God has poured into me, as it should be. I know what am I am doing and why I am supposed to. So I'll leave the blog posted; if it feels a little unfinished, that's because I'm still making progress. 

Many thanks for your time, 

Troysha